Rereading Please Don’t Kill the Freshman for the umpteenth time. Last year I can relate a lot to that. I think zoe trope is a very interesting person.

zoe’s cool.

Fairly acceptable day.

You realise I only see you on rainy days?

ha

ha

ha

Some people don’t deserve to be in full radar of my constant mood swings. Such a bitch, I am so sorry. Was v. angry angsty to some people today. So sorry. I know you are reading. But orpheus cheer me up (even though orpheus is not supposed to). i feel happy. for this moment anyway.

(urgh)

Have to go to vivocity to buy some stuff. Vivocity, so near but so far away.

I am back to talking to 4 people in class, so loser, so count von pathetic.

Chinese lesson so SUX. You’d think after our papers we have a bit of free period to work on other stuff (ie my horrid math and massive art proj.) but no. Really hate the subject, I did not used to perform so badly. I don’t know what happened.

Math test tomorrow and I told my teacher that I am sure that I will passed it. I think I opened my mouth too soon, but there is coordinate geometry so I think I’d fare pretty okay. (Even though as I’ve said earlier, how coordinate is coordinate geometry?!?) My math teacher makes me feel bad about myself. And I already feel bad enough about myself. It is just that she is nice to me but I’m doing so badly in the subject… she’s probably one of the very few people who are nice to me now…..

Really don’t know what is happening to me.

I really want to watch the Dark Knight movie but nobody wants to watch it with me. My broz watched yesterday with his friends and my sisters will probably watch with their respective bfs and IIIIIIIIIIIIII. Wait for what, dvd to come out?!?!? So boring. I really want to see the Joker.

I’m listening to a very stupid song right now.

Weekends = mario kart all the way! (just kidding)

I love WordPress. That is just about as nerdy as I can get now.

Saturday night out with the sibz and my sis’s bf. Drove to mustafa and B.A (you don’t know). We saw this huge ad that says WILD OATS WITH HORNY GOAT WEED. So funny ah… Bought a watch because I want something black to complete my new school outfit. (When you have a uniform like mine you can only carry black stuff) Love my new black Jansport and my watch. (p.s this has nothing to do with the song paint it black)

Sorry, that is just about as excited as I can get now.

Had dim sum afterwards at an ungodly hour, but I love chinese food so it doesn’t matter what I time I eat it. Yes I love chinese food, but not roast pig/duck/chicken suckling pig or pig trotters feet bum or whatever funny animal intestine stuff.

This morning I thought I heard them playing M.K but it’s just in my mind. Wii’s taken its toll on me. Then I had this really rad dream about me mario-karting. So insane, so fun.

Hah.

Ok.

I have to complete my weekend assignments. I think I’m just saying all these for the sake of it.

Tmr sux n I dun want 2 go 2 sch. h8 mondays… 2 much goin on 4 me….yawnz *insert other whiny monday blues stuff*

I hate thursdays so much, it is not even funny anymore.

Every one of my posts, it is so depressing right.

I hate to come here.

Because

I

Keep

on

falling

into

this

pit

and

i

just want to sleep.

for a long time.

Lousy few days. I attribute all of these faults to Rolling Stones’ Paint It Black.

Hah.

Actually. Not everything is so bad, it is just that every day as I leave the school I do not feel very happy. Sometimes I wish I can control my thoughts, like think of good stuff but seriously I cannot think of any.

Home is ok. I do not really elaborate everything to them. They’re so busy and the stupid tv diverts their attention.

Saturday, I’m thinking of going to this flea market thing my dad went to yesterday where he got this cool Ray bans (real thing). Very nice. Made plans with my parents… but I’m dreading it now. I just don’t feel like going out any more even though it’s still a few day away.

I don’t really know who i can believe in this place… I always thought we were friends but maybe not.

I feel that… there is no need to lie at all. Like you, you think I don’t know what happened, honestly, I would not care if I were you, everybody goes through the same sort of shit some time or other. So you don’t need to lie. Looking at you it’s like staring at myself in the mirror. I really hate it. I feel like there are a lot of things I cannot avoid.

And you. It’s very hard to call you a sell out. It is very hard to call you ANYTHING. It is very hard to be angry at you. Don’t want to cross paths with you anymore but it is hard not to and lot of times I almost lose myself & tell you to fuck off.

And lastly you, you… urgh… I’ve reached the point that whatever you say, it does not matter to me, and nothing will change.

I not in a v. good mood today… I blame it on Rolling Stones’ Paint It Black.

Have about only 20 points to elaborate on my day… about 18 negative ones. I spare you the shit.

At some corner of the school. I like this place very much. In the past Lj and I will go there and………. It is a sad story. It is very weird to go there alone so I don’t anymore.

To see you a rainy day, it makes me very happy.

Nicked from sara ’cause i have nothing to do.

Who do you blame for your mood today?
Weather

Have you ever seen a dead body?
Yes

What should we do w/ stupid people?
Let them be.

How long do you think you will live?
As long as I can I suppose. But it is hard to live now. The rising cost of living and such… it all means something right? We are all dying.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Read newspapers

The color of carpet in your bedroom?
White. Not really a carpet more like a rug… ahahah.

Last person you went out to dinner with?
Family.

Are you spoiled?
No I don’t think so.

Do you drink lots of water?
Not enough.

What toothpaste do you use?
Theramed. It is very good.

How do you vent your anger?
Don’t know. Yell at people or computer.

The last compliment you received?
I don’t recall.

What are you doing this weekend?
WEEKEND IS ALMOST OVER.
(play guitar hero)

When was the last time you threw up?
Dunno.

Is your best friend a virgin?
Erm, yes?? At least I hope so!

What theme does your room have?
White. Yawnz.

When was the last time you were at a party?
2 weeks ago.

Are you a mama’s child or a daddy’s child?
Er, NEITHER.

Would you ever join the military?
Never.

The last website you visited?
Sara’s blog, since that’s where I got this.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Idk. Ec..

Last person you went to the movies with?
Ec

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
Dinner with family at the chinese restaurant. I’m not a big fan of celebrating birthdays… seriously even if it’s my own, especially this year’s.

Number of layers on your bed?
3

Is anything alive in your room?
No.

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Neither, how fabulous can either of it be?

What are you looking forward to right now
?

Complete battle with Slash on hard!!!!!!!

Lousy Saturday. Not really my sibz abandoned me at home while having a fun time outside. Basically the day is spent going to tuition, play guitar, play guitar hero and wasting. Finished learning Tears In Heaven and playing 8 hard songs. Yawnz. I know some of you better than me, hwehhwehwheh. I really like Paint In Black.

If anything should happen, I’d rather stay and not go and see you. You know I am selfish like that. You think that I am good, but I’m not, really. You always do well but I still wish you all the best. Sometimes there are things people say that you shouldn’t miss it for your life. I know that, but I’d rather not face the consequences. I never expected that you of all people would feel the same way… hey that is very funny now that I think of it.

Feeling very anti social today. Very sick and just felt like being alone.

Finally something is out of the way…

L’arc~en~ciel’s Blurry Eyes still make me very sad. Sometimes I still cannot listen to the song. It reminds me of my gran. Not so much of the content of the song, it’s just one of those songs you happen to be looping at some time in your life and just reminds you of those times.

Other songs I also cannot listen:

Camera Obscura’s Lloyd I’m Ready To Be Heartbroken
L’arc~en~ciel’s Flower
I Am Ghost’s Lover’s Requiem (the cd)
Warped Tour 2006 Compilation (entire thing)